[ Which is the understatement of the century. Much, much worse. In any case he still doesn't let go of Daryl's arm, though it relents from death grip to settle on holding tight. He doesn't argue any further about whether it's a good call or bad call, just lifts his head enough to watch what Daryl's doing, take in his profile. He doesn't talk at all for a long time, actually. When he does, it's more subdued. ]
I'm sorry. [ There's a brief pause like he's taking a breath, trying to word something important. ] For making you stay behind. I just had these visions of losing you due to some stupid crap in the woods and I couldn't.
[ It's not joking and it's not confident like he usually is; sort of like how he gets stammer-y around Rick sometimes. (It is not actually like that at all. It's a different kind of stammer-y.) His fingertips press harder into Daryl's arm briefly before he lets go entirely. ] So I figured if I could take them all out, I wouldn't have to maybe lose you.
[ Now he's said it twice: "lose you," like he's family or something else entirely, and while it doesn't have as heavy a meaning as it might have before the apocalypse (you can lose anyone at any time), there's still a little something to it.
Whether "lose you" means dying or letting Daryl lose some of his humanity, Jesus doesn't say. ]
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[ Which is the understatement of the century. Much, much worse. In any case he still doesn't let go of Daryl's arm, though it relents from death grip to settle on holding tight. He doesn't argue any further about whether it's a good call or bad call, just lifts his head enough to watch what Daryl's doing, take in his profile. He doesn't talk at all for a long time, actually. When he does, it's more subdued. ]
I'm sorry. [ There's a brief pause like he's taking a breath, trying to word something important. ] For making you stay behind. I just had these visions of losing you due to some stupid crap in the woods and I couldn't.
[ It's not joking and it's not confident like he usually is; sort of like how he gets stammer-y around Rick sometimes. (It is not actually like that at all. It's a different kind of stammer-y.) His fingertips press harder into Daryl's arm briefly before he lets go entirely. ] So I figured if I could take them all out, I wouldn't have to maybe lose you.
[ Now he's said it twice: "lose you," like he's family or something else entirely, and while it doesn't have as heavy a meaning as it might have before the apocalypse (you can lose anyone at any time), there's still a little something to it.
Whether "lose you" means dying or letting Daryl lose some of his humanity, Jesus doesn't say. ]